Memories

Well... finally she found the one… Yeah... As her foster brother I feel happy for her... But I know u don’t know the true right?  Actually I LIKE her. Not ordinary LIKE. I... I... FELL IN LOVE with her. I know that I am wrong and supposed do not fell in love with her cuz she already though me as her brother.. well there is nothing else I can do right? Sometimes I want to forget about her but I can’t afford it. Sometimes I’ll try to let my feeling go but it seem it never work and it’s become very worst. So, I keep it in my heart. She never knows it. Only me, Sam and GOD know it. I lock it inside in my heart. I never story it to my parents cuz I know what my parents want to said. Maybe it was my fault cuz I never told her about it so she doesn’t know. If I told her early, maybe I don’t write this. If I told her early, maybe I don’t cry when know she finally found the one. But if I told her early, maybe she will hate me. If I told her early, maybe she though that I am crazy cuz my look is doesn’t match with her taste. If I told her early, maybe she will leave me. So I decided to shut up! And now she with her choice... there nothing else that I can do unless helps her when she need and give her supportive word to keep it going with her choice... I can’t forget everything about her anymore. I remember how we know each other. I remember when she asked me to become her foster brother. I remember how she cries. I still remember her angry voices when I do anything fault. I still remember when last year in last day school we walking going home. I still remember her sweet face. I remember when she text me that she love me. I still remember when my granny died she cool me down. All memories with her are always in my heart. And from now on, I’m her foster brother. Well… Its time to move on right? Lets keep moving on.

Sincerely

Mashi